Good-bye my lover [this is like 2 years old]

I gotta say I never thought I'd hear that! The words I've been dreading for oh so long. It never seemed real to me, kept denying it. Still don't believe it, his eyes were contradicting what he was saying. Saw him today, and I gotta say, it kinda hurt. As we sat there and talked, and as I looked into his eyes, it reminded me why I fell so deep in love! His eyes are a line which lead directly to his heart, you can see the truth in them when he lies. Told me he wasn't in love with me anymore, said that he was in love with her. His eyes told different than what he was saying to me. Talked for what seemed like hours, and the entire time he couldn't even look me straight in the eye. Never cared about somebody so much, keep tryin to go on. It is so hard to forget about what once was had, so hard to move on. The pain is just eating away, eating away at the insides. I know deep down he wants to be with me, fear of getting hurt is what keeps him at bay. I can tell by the way he talks, no matter what he says I know the truth. He knows I know, just to afraid to admit! How can I convince him I won't ever do it agaiN!? He told me to move on, to forget about him, to better my life without him. THat is so hard to do when no one wants you, that is so hard to do when you don't want anybody else. What is it gonna take to move on from him?! I think its gonna take a guy to come steal my heart!! He was the one person I thought would be there forever!!! I guess I was wrong! It kills me inside, I'm actually kinda dizzy from it, and I'm not kidding! Three years of love and care down the drain and no way of getting it back! How can I be with someone else when I miss him so much. Take the time to drive by his house, drive by his work. Just to see his car makes me smile, to know hes around, makes me giggle. But today he killed me with what he said. Said that he wanted to marry that girl of his yet I knew he was lying!!! He doesn't realize his eyes tell all, but maybe he does! Maybe we have a love like the Notebook, maybe 7 years down the road after years of not seeing eachtoher, and not talking, we'll meet up again. And when we do we'll fall madly in love with eachother all over again, and then spend forever together just like we planned. I don't know what fate has in store for me, no idea whats ahead. I hope one day he sees that he rocks my world! HOpe one day he sees the truth inside these eyes!!!

"Goodbye my lover, goodbye my friend"